Dose of the blues

It's been a bit of a crappy week all in all. I have been, for some reason known only to the gods and my hormones, terribly tearful all week. The problem with feeling this way, is that you spend so much time trying to figure it out. What is dragging me down, what is making me feel so low? Is it the weather, am I eating badly, sleeping enough, am I stressed about something I haven't even picked up on yet, am I just a truly awful person who sees no joy in life and should in fact save everyone else the hassle of putting up with me and just become a hermit, WHY AM I SO MELODRAMATIC? *has tea, calms down*

The other real bummer, you know aside from the fact I'm a miserable cow, is that the good parts of the week are all screwy because of the overwhelming sense of doom and failure. I had a really good evening Wednesday, saw my parents and came away feeling pretty darn cheery. Then I had a sit down. The grey mist of, down in the dumps, crept back in, or more likely the serotonin boost wore off and boom I was low again. So low and tired in fact that I could barely even be bothered to move. Great, I had gone from mildly grumpy to world endingly depressed simply through the process of comparison.

It has got to the stage now where I am not just feeling sad, but that sadness is starting to affect my logical thinking. Awesome. So I am rather hoping that whatever is causing this little bout of the blues will kindly scram, soon.

What will be interesting is to see whether this is a hormonal thing, whether about a week and a half after the faeries next visit, I get a dose of the deep, down, dirty blues.If not then I am putting this episode down to the fact that our current weather system has decided that freezing and wet is the way forward, have a hot chocolate and cheer the heck up.